I've had a really rought couple of weeks. We had a brownie sleepover and some girls came with germs which then combined to make a supergerm which knocked out a number of girls including me. I had only just had my procedure done so was probably more susceptible to infection. I can honestly say that I have never been this sick in my life and have had no appetite for about 10 days, no energy, i have a terrible cough that keeps me from sleeping (I even slept sitting up on the couch one night which helped a little bit) and doing pretty much anything - every time i cough i feel my uterus get crunched, and i still have morning sickness! I usually throw up in the morning, and then again once i've spent about an hour eating dinner. What a waste! I've ended up losing 4kg which probably makes me technically anorexic now, and i have no fat on my hips, legs, face, stomach anymore. My hips are extremely painful as I can only sleep in one position (to minimise coughing) and there is no cushioning anymore. I am just a bag of skin and bones! Things are very bad.
Poor Preston has taken the brunt of my lack of energy and lack of interest in parenting. I've spent days and days just yelling at him and wanting him to get out of my way and leave me alone. He has been particularly naughty but it's probably mostly my fault as I have had absolutely no desire to play with him or do anything at all for him. I've desperately needed family help at times when i've wished i wasn't a parent, but our Auckland family are unreliable/disinterested which is very frustrating.
I thought the pregnancy was all over the other day when after a week of violent coughing i had a few days of spotting, indicating potential miscarriage. Luckily when I went to the midwife today I heard the heartbeat so it's managed to pull through. I've been able to eat for the last 2-3 days and i'm downing protein drinks 3 times a day in a desperate attempt to put some weight back on. And i haven't thrown up my dinner for the last 2 nights so hopefully i'm getting back on track.
Still no final results for my chromosome test - seems like there is a lot of unnecessary red tape surrounding privacy and even though i've given consent, they can't be faxed to me or my midwife - they are finally being posted to me... that's not very secure either. What a waste of time.
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You poor thing! Hopefully you are on the mend now :-)
I know how difficult it can be not having family in Auckland. If you ever want me to help in anyway - maybe babysit P - while you have some time out, just give me a yell.
He could always come hang out with M and practice being a big brother, maybe feed some ducks, go up to the playground up the hill.
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